My mom w/ Everly & Millie in August 2011
One reason I wanted a switch from my last blog Momfish to this blog is because I couldn’t really share some of my “personal” news on Momfish if it wasn’t related to parenting. I mean I could, it’s not as if the Blog Gods would come down upon my head if I did it, but I had targeted a specific group of people and that type of news would have felt out of place. So even though writing has always been a way I’ve organized my thoughts, I had to stifle some of that in order to fit a product I was trying to create.
Nothing squelches creativity more than putting it in a pretty little box and giving it boundaries.
I guess having a 14 month old and being excessively pregnant kinda squelches it too, if we’re going to be fair. The last thing I want to do at the end of a long day (especially a teething day) is sit down and be poetic with my words. The most poetic thing I’m capable of most nights would be turning over on the couch without crushing the bones of my tiny chihuahua lying underneath me.
But anyway.
Today I was reminded why I’m thankful I’m launching this new blog – a bigger dosage of personal than Momfish ever could be. I was reminded because my mom was told she might have CLL, a slow progressing type of leukemia, and I thought how miserable I’d be if I had to quiet my feelings about it and instead blog about disposable diapers or sippy cups.
There’s a time and a place for everything, and right now I need this place to say I was scared when it was called to my attention that my parents are not immortal. It isn’t necessarily the 1st time that has happened but it was shocking and unexpected enough that I felt the need to hug my mama tight and evaluate if I was living life outside of the box, exactly the way I wanted to.
Because who knows how long we all have that privilege?
Hey there! I’m glad you have decided to write a more personal blog, where you can let it all out if you need to. I remember the old days of Diaryland and livejournal, where we freely expressed EVERYTHING and didn’t really care who saw it. I cannot imagine how I would deal with anything happening to my Mama, she’s my best friend. I’m sorry to hear that there is a concern for your Mom and I have said a prayer for her and your family! Congratulations on Baby #2! His name is as unique and fitting as his big sister’s! Best luck to you and your sweet little family!
I’m hoping for good news on Wednesday when she has more tests! I’m glad I decided on this, too. I was going to just switch “Momfish” over to a personal blog, but the name alone really segregates it. I didn’t like having those limits (me not liking limits? Imagine that! haha)
so sorry to hear your mom might be sick…please tell her i will be praying for her! always love reading your stuff kalen! you are very creative and always have something interesting and informative to say! look forward to all the new stuff! :)
First, I’m SO excited to see you have a more personal blog. I missed you and your more constant flow of stories on Momfish so yay! Secondly, I’m so sorry to hear about your momma. Growing up and realizing our parents won’t always be around, sucks big time. I’ll be praying for her and you :)